I GOTTA...

I gotta read about how I matter to him
I gotta read about how her life looks dim
I gotta read how the life he never had became my dream
I gotta read how her chances of living are slim
I gotta know why he has to cry for me to smile
I gotta know why we have to go the extra mile
I gotta know what goes on in her little head
I gotta know what made him choose her instead
I gotta see where she comes from every morning
I gotta see if she can swim without drowning
I gotta see if we were made for each other
I gotta see if this could become a bother
I gotta think if the if the insults are necessary
I gotta think coz I forgot our anniversary
I gotta think before I act and regret my decision
I gotta think if they are worth my attention